Hey tumblrssss. I just really need to write, and i dont think anyone will read this but they say its bad to keep it all bottled in. I am really sad when it comes to being single. The reason is because i have been all my life, no one has ever wanted me and its a sad feeling when you realize that. So its a struggle everyday to deal with, but i dont sit around and cry about it, im extremely active and busy but you cant help what you feel right. So many people that dont deserve anything, have the only thing ive always wanted, just love. This is making me sound fucking pathetic, but i dont care. Im a strong person but its becoming an issue. Its like eating away at my heart.im sad. Then it gets worse because even though i want to get married one day and have children…im not going to have any. At all. Seeing my little brother with autism is the worst thing ive ever dealt with nothing hurts more than to see him struggle. And im supposed to have a child that could potentially go through that.bullshit. its all bullshit . Life is bullshit but the summer has started. I plan on it being successful, but unfortunately it might be lonely.